This is Elena Robles, and I first off wanted to thank everyone for taking the time to read my blog and get a little insight on what I was going through during my time on the show. I am so excited to let everyone in on my trip and experiences while on the Big Break Sandals Resorts show.
Going in to the first challenge, I was confident and ready to get this competition underway. As the girls started to hit their first shots, I was just trying to calm my nerves down enough to be able to hit my shot. Sara Brown had hit the best shot leading up to my turn, close to the hole, and I knew that I had to get it inside of her ball in order to have a chance at immunity. My goal was to stay relaxed and into my process and try not to focus on the results. I went up there with a ton of confidence telling myself that I have hit this shot millions of times in the past and this was just another golf shot. I felt very comfortable and went thru my routine and hit a shot that felt great.
As I looked up and at my target, I saw the ball stop by the hole and just inside Sara’s ball. I had won the first immunity, but I wasn’t scot-free yet. They threw a twist at us; I had to pick one person to go against in order to hit one shot to take the immunity. I wasn’t given any time really to think about my choice, and at that point, I didn’t really have a chance to get to know all the girls, so I just went with Kelly since she was on the right-hand side of the bench. Looking back, had I been given some time to think about it, I would have picked Sara since she hit the second best shot and allowed her a second chance to win it.
Kelly went from safe city bench and literally hit the fastest shot I have ever seen and stuck it to within 10 feet. After seeing that shot next to the hole, I knew my work was far from over. I stepped up there and hit my shot. It felt even better then the first shot I had hit, and my eyes were like lasers at the pin. My ball stopped very close to the pin, but unfortunately I had spun the ball back to 13 feet and lost the immunity to Kelly. Just when I thought it was over, they threw another twist at us: the infamous ‘Save/Send’ card. I was very excited to see that, because in my mind, I was thinking Kelly would save me for giving her another shot at immunity. But instead, she picked Sara, and I had to go to the next challenge.
This challenge was even more intense for me, because I had performed so well in the first challenge that I wanted, almost expected, to perform to that bar or even higher. I stepped up to the second challenge and had a 30-yard chip shot up the hill with a good left-to-right wind. I decided to hit my 56-degree wedge. I was very comfortable with that club, and I knew I had a chance to get in close with my club selection. I stepped up to the shot, and I was so nervous that I couldn’t get my club to stop shaking. Instead of backing away and going through my routine again, I hit the shot, and on my downswing, I tightened my grip and hit it way too solid through the wind to just inside 16 feet. Obviously, I knew I had to get it closer, so I opted to hit another ball, knowing that I had to keep this shot and throw away the last one.
Never in a million years did I think that I would do the same thing again, but I did. I ended up hitting the second one further away from the hole then the first, and after that, I knew I was going into the elimination challenge, because I had no doubt that the other girls would hit it inside of me.
At that point, when I was walking up to safe city and saw my name on the bottom, I was just trying to mentally calm myself down and prepare myself for the elimination challenge. I definitely was feeling some sadness and frustration that I couldn’t pull off such an easy shot after rocking the first challenge. My goal at that point was to go into elimination and win.
Leading into the elimination challenge, I was feeling a bunch of emotions: anxiety, excitement, hopefulness, confidence and readiness to compete. I had a great mindset going into the challenge, because I knew that I was going to give in my all and that the person I was going up against was going to have to play perfect golf to beat me. As I stepped up to the tee to hit my three shots in the first part of a three part elimination challenge, I was very confident. I am very consistent off the tee and knew that this part would be easy for me. I split the fairway with all three balls and had tons of confidence going into the second part of the challenge. Maiya hit her first three balls all with sweeping draws, and from the tee, we had no idea if her balls were in play or not. As we stepped up to the fairway, we saw that she had just made it in-bounds, so she was safe, and we were tied at 3-3. Going into the second shot, all we had to do was hit three balls on the green for a point each.
I stepped up with confidence and knocked my first shot close to the pin. I was very excited to hit the next two shots, because I was very comfortable with the distance they had chosen. I set up to my next shot and hit another solid shot on the green. All I wanted to do was knock the last shot on the green and move onto the putting green where I knew I would shine. I had solid contact with my last shot, and right after I made contact with the ball, a gust of wind came up and pushed my little draw shot short, off the green and to the left. I knew that I had done everything I could to be successful and that I couldn’t control anything except for my process and how I react to my shots. So after Maiya hit all three of her balls on the green, I knew I had to make up some ground.
I was very excited to go to the green and roll some putts in with my flat stick. We went onto the green, and Maiya had honors since she had one more point then me. She rolled her putt in, and I set up to my putt with a ton of confidence. I rolled a solid putt but played way too much break for the slow greens that we were playing on, so I missed my putt on the high side. Maiya set up and rolled in her second putt. At that point, I was so into my process that I walked up all ready to roll another putt, and then I was notified that I couldn’t make up the points even if I made the next two putts. WOW!
I couldn’t even talk I was so numb and dumbfounded at what had just happened. I had gone from the penthouse to the outhouse in one show. Never in a million years did I envision myself going home on the first show. I didn’t want to show my emotions, but I knew that I couldn’t control what had happened and that it just wasn’t part of God’s plan for me. I had so much hope and confidence for the show that I just couldn’t believe that I was going home so fast. I was disappointed that I wasn’t able to take full advantage of this opportunity and that the dream of mine to compete on the LPGA or even in some LPGA events had slipped through my fingers so fast. I prayed to God to give me the strength to stay strong and confident in myself, but after the day I just had, it was very hard to do. I wasn’t mad at Maiya for winning, because in my eyes, she deserved to stay. She had outplayed me, but I was very disappointed.
I left the show with mixed emotions and just tried to focus on the fact that I was so blessed to even be there in the first place. Through the Grace of God, I had been given the chance to compete on the show when there are millions of golfers that would die to be in my position. I am so thankful and grateful to the Golf Channel for choosing me and treating me with the upmost respect. I couldn’t have asked for a better opportunity, and I will never forget this wonderful experience. I look forward to a bright future ahead of me. This is just a small step in the big picture, and I will take what I have learned about myself on and off the golf course and relate it to my everyday life from here on out. I want to thank you all for taking the time to read my blog and see what I was going through during my time on the show. Thank you all and GOD BLESS!